I suppose it feels not as bad as the first days
One day I think I am doing great
then bam the next all I do is cry
or a song comes on that cracks me up
and the next saddens me
Or I see an older couple and think
that was suppose to be Carl and I
and what did I do to deserve to be left in this
world all alone
While on our journey to NJ to visit Carls family
it was as if he was with us
even though I kept waiting for my phone to ring
as it often did when we weren’t together.
I do finally feel like maybe just maybe I am looking further down the
road than 1/4-1/2 the day ahead
A month in the future actually
I have decided to transfer
possibly even sell the RV and Dually
I keep reading and hearing no major changes in the first year
but then I have talked to a counselor
that has said if it feels right do it
sometimes fresh starts is what is needed.
Love resides within me or so that was to be my mantra this week!
A grieving person is almost like you’re in a completely different world.
When you lose someone so close, you become a different person, part of you dies with them.
people say you’ll get through this
but you were my strength,
and now you’re gone.